dress & heels: thrifted, bag: marshall'sI had a startling realization last night as I was driving home from my friend Miranda's house. Friends who have graduated are packing up and some are leaving in the next week; friends who are still in high school are starting back up again equally as soon. I leave in probably about a month's time for Seattle. I feel suddenly extremely overwhelmed. This summer I feel like I've concentrated on enjoying the time that's left here in CA with my friends than focusing on the change that's basically about to happen. I don't think until I'm actually in Seattle and dealing with it all will I actually be like, "dang, this is happening."
I haven't started packing yet; I haven't really bought any dorm room stuff; I think there is still financial aid paperwork etc that needs to get done... Before I leave for Seattle, I want to get my first tattoo so that needs to be figured out for real... And also my birthday is September 7th, so I have to figure that out as well. I think a big problem with me getting this sort of stuff done is that I don't have someone kicking my butt about it at all times. Sure, when my parents get home from work they tell me that I still need to do stuff, but I don't usually get on it. When left to my own accords, it seems I'm definitely a horrible procrastinator. Whoo, big shocker there!
I have those prodding thoughts inside me that insist I change these actions before it's too late and I get bit in the butt - but I never change. It makes me so frustrated that I don't have enough of the necessary drive to fix what I don't like about myself. Any advice out there? On a side note, my lovely lady Miranda and I watched 21 Jump Street last night for the second time and of course, died from the hilarity of it all. Goosshhhh I can't even. I just can't. xxoo
currently listening to // Erykah Badu - Penitentiary Philosohpy