As I write this, I'm sitting in a hot mess of a room; clothes piled up in stretched out and rumpled black trash bags; boxes of knick knacks and breakables padded down with pajamas and socks. Maybe I shouldn't be writing a post now and I should be continuing the packing process. But all I can think is I need a bit of a break and writing this post with The Head and the Heart playing softly from my speakers may do just the trick.
Tomorrow I leave for Seattle, Washington! The past night and all of today I've had this twisting feeling in my stomach and all I can think is, everything is changing. Last night I finally feel like I realized that I'm leaving tomorrow and that in some way or another, things won't be stay the same. In all honestly, I feel ready for things to shake up; for this normalcy to be given a jolt. I think since I've gained the mindset that yes, I'm leaving and moving on to the next step of my life, I've realized that life is so complex. Up until this point, I mostly have thought about life in increments. "Right now I'm doing this; next year there is a potential for me to do this"... I think it's crazy that we forget that there is so much more to our lives than the immediate next step. When I think about it this different way, I automatically get excited for my future. There's a bubbling in my stomach because I know that God has such great plans for me and I have so much to look forward to! Of course thinking about the future also gives me a lot of worries and concerns (which is generally why people stick to thinking in the present), but I think if you hold on to that attitude that things are going to turn out well, then it is easier to think about the future.
Anyway, the next time you hear from me, I will be in my new home, starting school and hopefully settling in. For now, please pray for safe travels for me and my family as we drive twelve hours up the coast tomorrow. And of course, thank you so much for reading and for your continual support and kindness! ♥ See you in Seattle!