dress & shawl: thrifted, boots: dsw, backpack: c/o yeswalker.com
So it's almost 12 o'clock and I'm feelings mostly tired and in a mood where I'm thinking about all the things I want in my life. Do you ever do that? Stay up later than you intend, dwelling on the things that probably shouldn't be dwelt on. It's so easy to become sentimental over people and situations and a life that you have never had. I guess this is a very good example of over-thinking and just general wistful musings. It's like I miss things that were never mine and I miss feelings that were never there. I'm sure there is a better way to describe this all -- but as I said, it's growing late and my thoughts are flowing with no promise of fluidity.
I feel like this time of my life requires a lot of day dreaming. Day dreaming about my future and hopes, but at the same time, the realities that surround all of these thoughts. I tend to be stuck in between the thoughts of a bitter and hopeless realist, and an excited and encouraged idealist. On a similar note, I recently took the Strong Interests Inventory assessment for my major/career exploration class, and my results were ASE: Artistic, Social, and Enterprising. I'm still undecided for my major, but as I consider myself and exactly what I could thrive doing for a career, it's becoming more and more of a challenge to ignore the fact that I am an artistic person -- and maybe, just maybe, I need to be putting my efforts into something more aligned with that. I don't know. There is so much pressure in college. So much pressure to be who you are supposed to be -- but who is that? And so much pressure to be who society wants or needs you to be. Often my mind and heart become so strained trying to put together a puzzle that's missing about half of the pieces.
Since this is a style blog and this post has an outfit in it, I suppose I need to touch on that too! It was a typical Friday of classes, coffee and reading at Milstead, and just lounging and giggling with my friends. My life has so much good, gotta keep that in mind. xxoo E
currently listening to // Frank Ocean - Lost