Lately I've been finding it more and more difficult to blog here. I feel like I don't really have worthwhile content anymore and I keep telling myself, if you were a better photographer, it would be better... if you owned a better camera, it would be better... if you were a better writer... if you had more interesting thoughts... if you did more interesting things... It's an endless cycle and to be honest, when I try to look at this from an outside perspective, what I see is someone trying too hard. Is the passion for this blog still there? I take outfit photos -- but definitely a lot less than when I first started getting into this blog. The problem is, I don't really like the results that I'm producing. Maybe I'm unhappy with how I look; maybe I'm unhappy with my style. I just don't feel good enough and I don't feel like I have the motivation to make myself good enough.
I've avoided unearthing this topic because I'm really quite a pro at just continuing on -- avoiding my feelings and not coming to terms with things. That's what I've done here. I think I've had these growing feelings for a while now but I have tried to convince myself that I've remedied them in some way. I don't think I have. I think they sat and they've bubbled and I've just kept lying to myself.
I'm unsure what to do. Being completely honest with you... I don't know who I'd be without this blog and that scares me. If you have any advice, I'd love to hear it. Thanks, you guys. xx